( Here be things that aren't dragons )


Overall, things are good. And unless unforeseen events through wrenches in the wheels, they should continue to be so.
/end progress report?

...I haven't mentioned this before somehow, but asdhagshdgahsdhagsh I'm going to Brighton on Thursday (up to Sunday evening/Monday), and London on Monday, OH MY GOD. I think it still hasn't hit me properly (I've yet to go to the UK, you see; I've yet to do a lot of travelling in general), although, weirdly enough, this vid sure seems to have helped that along. It's what prompted this post, at the very least. 

Must figure out what we're going to see in London (my boyfriend's taking care of the Brighton part, and we do have 4 days for that as opposed to one for London). Also, will be meeting a very good friend from highschool there (haven't seen her since... last year on Easter? Has it really been almost a year?...)

Also, heh, we're getting back on the morning of the 28th (after not having slept the night before), and in the afternoon I've my first Dutch class (from the intermediate course). Whoo-boy.

Have spent the last hour and a half trying to figure out my research questions. I know the first one. The rest suck.
HEEEEEELP.

Also, the amount of frustration I'm registering right now (what with still not knowing what my research questions are after seven months and 1.5 papers written) could apparently only be expressed by me scribbling, in two-inch caps "I WISH THIS WAS IN ANY WAY FUNNIER IN ENOCHIAN!" in my ideas-notebook.

Sigh.

( As my LJ tag so unimaginatively puts it, Life and Stuff )

ETA: omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg, I've just had the most perfect strike of inspiration in the course of this PhD project yet! omg, so happy! *manic grin*

ETAA: right, so I ended up reading only two articles, but I should mention that the rest of the time was spent debating things like social identities and social contexts and how collaboration practices and the theory of structuration connect to them, so yeah; :P

 

Great, and now my computer's dead. There's something wrong with either the charger or the socket in the computer through which it connects to the power, because now the battery's dead and it won't turn on/doesn't have access to the juice to turn on.

Am working on the computer of a wonderful friend who lent hers to me until around 20:00 tonight (okay; have 7.5 hours to finish the damn paper, okay.), and fdkhgdjfghjdfh what if there's something wrong with the computer's socket, and not the charger? But we'll see tomorrow (hopefully).
Ugh, and I had a horribly disturbing dream last night :(
This day is not starting off as a good day.

Well, let's hope inspiration hits in this 7.5 hour interval, it would be wonderful to send the paper off for the last checks tonight *is ever hopeful*

PS. Welp. This is one way to get me to read more books instead of wasting time on the internet. :|

My 6-seasons DVD box-set of Supernatural arrived in the post just now, and it's shiny and compact and gorgeous, and has all three boys on the cover (you know, that Team-Free-Will-wears-all-black promo pic), and I spent like a full minute cooing at it and going "my boys, my boys."  While at work. I don't even caaaaaaaaaare :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I am going to have so. much. fun. once the EGOS paper is no longer an issue (one way or another).

May 2012 be awesome, greater and happier and more eventful (in the good way) and more relieved (notice I don't say relaxed, because I still don't know how to do that) than the second half of 2011 was for me (and it was all those things, in spades). And may the internet not explode with information about the Mayans, if possible. As for me right now:

( Let me explain. No, there is too much; let me sum up. (would you believe that quote was actually the motto for one of the sections in my very first draft of my first paper? Part of me wanted to keep it, too :3) )

Got home on Friday around 23:30. All things went mindbogglingly well. The plane left 20 minutes late and landed 15 minutes early. The train got there about 4 minutes early. I don't think you understand; the train, my train, one of our trains, got. there. early. That hasn't happened once in all my six years of regular train rides from Bucharest to Craiova. No one that I know of has had that happen to them before. Late, sure. Early? Early is a miracle. 

But yes, got home safe and sound after about 13 hours of travel and waiting in airports and train stations. And then yesterday we went shopping for about 5 hours (got two new pairs of boots, whoo~ And finally found jeans I was happy with~), and then we decorated the tree (which was copiously photographed due to my nephew's new-found love of taking pictures), and then I played the "connect to the internet" game that always happens when I get home and have to convince my mom's modem to cooperate and let my laptop connect instead of her PC. A game which I finally won this morning. Heh.

I will now begin to stalk the Amazon page for price variations in the SPN box set (S1-S6). I'm... 60% sure I want to get it.

Also, must make up working schedule. The supervisor-deadline for both my papers is Jan 3rd, and after some calculations I realised this means they have to be 95% done by Dec 30th. Which means a lot of dedication on my part. Oh, and have I mentioned I'll be taking my Dutch B1 exams at the end of January? (they should be A2, but my teacher believes in me and gave me extra work). Yeah, I'll have to study for that during the holidays too. 

But! Christmas dinner lunch! Cozonac! Sarmale! omg, my kind of cheese! All is well in the culinary department :D And now to finish my tea, send that email (who, me? a workaholic? nahhhh), and go help mom with setting up the table. 

So there's the ability to blacklist things on tumblr, right? But there are people out there who don't tag their posts properly, or who answer questions about spoilers publicly, and therefore spoiling some information (not all of them, of course, not all the time; but this one time; this one time!).

And I got spoiled (unavoidable, really, considering what the information was; but still). With something pretty major. And I didn't want that. And now I have to put so. much. effort. into forgetting about it (like I could) or not trusting the source (it's been confirmed, though; vaguely, but it's been confirmed) or thinking that nope, nope, not actually going to happen, so that when it does happen I'll be surprised. It's not gonna work, damn it!

I've been denied my shock value. And this would have been such an amazing shock O_O

;_;

Yeah. So, goodbye tumblr (omg! so much extra efficiency at work!). At least until whatever has to happen happens (oh god, there's at least a month of hiatus). I'm kinda bummed that this had to happen now, after I found some pretty nice new blogs to follow :( 

The question is. HOW WILL I PROCRASTINATE NOW? ;_____;

As I've told my supervisors, 

I may have just found the article that’ll be the cornerstone of my PhD project.

O_O
Oh the joy, the absolute joy!!

Welp, no I know what I'll be doing tomorrow :D

Schedule's booked to high heaven. Yesterday I had about 2 hours of non-scheduled time, which flew away who knows how (still doing productive things during at least half of it). Making lists like a Boss. 

I haven't had this much to do and so many overlapping tasks since I used to work for the bank. It's that feeling of having to keep several balls in the air, and the idea of deadlines, and some tasks that pop up out of the blue, and just stuff that needs to get done. I hadn't realized I actually missed it! Weird yeah, but yay for me right now!

Best thing of all, as I suspected, the more things I have to do, the more willing I am to do it, less time wasted, etc. I even want to start reading actual books again! (ordered Pratchett's newest yesterday, so excited! I missed Vimes, I really did.)

Now off to lunch, and then back to more planning-and-doing. Whittle down that to-do list, oh yes!

Can't find (affordable) flight on the dates I want for Christmas; choice restricted by the fact that I have to teach in the last week before Christmas; will have to see if I can reschedule those two tutorials, but that might happen in Nov, and I want to buy the tickets now; kinda; will email prof to ask for suggestions? Though he didn't seem like the suggestions type.

Am buried in too much to read (no really, a lit review for IOR, and coordination in general, and the healthcare industry, and info about emergency medicine, and on top of all the reading there's the writing involved, writing 7 to 20 pages, which means at least 10 basically, and all that in a week and a half? yup, not possible, right? Why did it take me a week to write the first two-page proposal, why?) and I'm not reading at the speed I want to read at - that is, the speed of light, or at least 24/7 (Must. read. relevant chapters of 800-page book (read: half). in a day. Must, damn it! To paraphrase Dracula (wow, interesting choice): Speed-reading is life, and it shall be my life as well!). Damn my procrastination, damn it.

To continue my meme-speak:

Use strategic alliances in ALL the industries!
Use ALL the possible definitions for networks and alliances and coordination and HC integration!
Waste ALL the time!

At least my date tonight got cancelled, that's good!

Shoot me now.

ETA: There's a researcher whose work keeps being referenced in this chapter I'm reading; his name is Castells. One guess re: what I keep reading it as instead :| Sigh,

Ahahahahaha, I am now buried in deadlines :D

My supervisors have started asking me for actual written things: a 1-2 Page Thing to present to potential contacts, plus an interview outline, plus the list of contacts by around Tuesday (this part is 3/5 done; I've more or less finished writing the first draft, but need to include (and re-discover) references for it; the list of questions is... kind of done (they mostly suck, and need to be rephrased/re-thought so that they're actually interview questions, not a list of things I'm curious about); the search for contacts is in progress (websites aren't very informative, damn it)), and 8-20 pages (basically a cross between the research proposal and a literature review) by the 26th (what happened to Christmas being the deadline for the proposal, huh?). Not to mention the theoretical part of a first conceptual paper due by the 16th of January (which in fact means that it has to be ready by Christmas if I want time to incorporate feedback), with the empirical data gathered and analysed by June, for the EGOS conference (omg, first conference...). And, well, it's a while off, but in March next year there's a PhD Day Conference thing, and I have to have smth ready enough to present for feedback to My Peers. Ahahahahaha.

Also, my Dutch class has started since October 3rd, twice a week from 17:45 to 19:30. It's going well, I like the teacher, it seems I know more than I thought I did, but this week I was tired like nobody's business, and I'm pretty sure it was the extra hours in the afternoon. Joy. Furthermore, the two other courses I'm supposed to attend and the tutorial I'm supposed to teach are all scheduled to start in November (which, come to think of it, makes having to write that proposal-review-thing by the end of October a good thing!).

I like deadlines. I do. The less time I have the more things I do, and when I have too little on my plate I tend to waste time. But really. Really. All of this at once? *makes wounded puppy face* At least I knew it was coming?

...And this weekend I'm going to my boyfriends' parents' place again for the fair. Yep. Kind of irresponsible of me, I guess, but I am taking my Dutch book with me, and the Word file with the 1-2 Page Thing, and internetz is there, and it's gonna rain all day anyway. Plenty of time to stay in and work. Plus, I know myself, I wouldn't be doing too much work even if I did stay home (I'm still in that mental place where I think work should be done at work and that's that. I'm pretty sure that's not gonna last for very long :D)

Manic grins ftw!

Oh. My. God. 
This season will be has so much potential to be amazing
O_O

please don't kill off my Cas for good, kthxbye

After several false starts, I have my first three to four paragraphs (of the first draft of either the phd proposal or the first ever study; probably the former) that sound coherent, have a flow, and don't seem to me like I'm rehashing all the tired ol' statements from the articles I've been going through till now.

Progress!

Feeble progress, but progress nonetheless!

BSG continues to be awesome (I'm up to 3x15; haven't finished watching it), and I continue to root half-warily for Space-Mom and Space-Dad.  Also, I'm half-bouncing in my seat with excitement at the thought of getting back home, getting on with watching the series, and hopefully runnining into more Space-Mom and Space-Dad related scenes. I love them both so much *sniffle* 

Strangest and hopefuly not the most useless idea I've had - I've started a blog solely for the purpose of properly tagging the articles I'm going through. I tried cross-referencing them by keywords in Excel but that didn't work. Let's see how this'll go.

...and it's all because of Hope in The Air and What He Wrote by Laura Marling:

They've been on my mind since the beginning of S6, and so much of them work for Cas in S6. The first one could also include his views of Dean at the end of S5, and his views on angels in S6, and the events that led to the S6 finale; the second one, among others, could include the reasons that led to his deal with Crowley, and some DeanCas, and God abandoning him. I haven't given enough thought to the second one yet (the lyrics could be interpreted in several ways), but for the first one, oh the first one - for the first one I've apparently picked out scenes for almost each line, and audio-snippets, and various panning effects, and all that on the way to work this morning...

Why am I doing this to myself? It's not like I'll be satisfied enough with the vid for all the work I'll put into it ;_;

On the upside, I'll be having a hobby that doesn't consist of fic-reading again...

I just wrote the following sentence in my first bullet-point draft of the first draft of the first draft (clearly, it's a draft) of Study #0:

o    There can be no “optimal” approach to coordination because reasons (Stille et al, 2005)

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. The internetz, what can you do.

Had my first official meeting with both supervisors + extra input-offering professor on Monday. All went wonderfully; have decided on the general direction and aim of the 4 studies I'm going to pursue, plus a study #0 that'll be a typology/fact-gathering re: current context and pressing issues type thing.

( Read more... )

In that every other day I switch from knowing what I want to research at least in broad terms (I mean, I know the research topic, cross-org coordination in the health care sector, but the research questions (and eventual sub-questions) themselves? A whole 'nother story) to having absolutely no clue, no clear idea, and lacking any kind of inspiration when it comes to shiny, new, useful things to study.

Today I switched from the latter to 3-4 shiny questions, to yet again doubting the usefulness of said questions. But I'm putting my foot down. I need an A4 overview of what I've been reading till now/possible ideas for research by tomorrow, and they'll have to be it. Let my supervisors come up with reasons to veto my (as yet inconcrete) ideas, I'm done with doing it myself.

*pouts*

It's taped to my monitor (sadly, in black and white). Yep.
pic from aesc's Casifesto

You know that feeling when you're eating something that's so amazingly great and tasty and good and perfect and hnnnnng that there's a running commentary of ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod- running through your head with every bite? That feeling that may have been described as a food-orgasm at one point?


...I'm getting that with this article I'm reading right now. It's perfect. So perfect. It's everything I've never realised I wanted. (Up till now at least) with every paragraph I read I keep thinking You're kidding, I can't be that lucky, it can't actually be going in that direction- holy shit, yes it is! oh my god!


If its case-study ends up being as good as its theoretical framework (and oh my god, if it's been cited! if its references will prove half as useful!) I might just have to hyperventilate O_O


In other news, Dutch weather reached a new peak yesterday, when my area of Nijmegen was covered in total darkness for at least 15 minutes starting from around 12:04 in the middle of the day. This was a freak storm, you see. I swear to god, it looked like it was night. I have pictures! Bad ones! On my phone! And then, just like Dutch weather, in the afternoon it was sunny and warm and the sky was marvellously blue. Go figure.


In other other news - new, slightly different trailer for SPN S7. I'm keeping my optimism shield up; it's the only sane thing to do. :S

I am Blue/White

Take The Magic Dual Colour Test - Beta today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.

I'm both orderly and rational. I value control, information, and order. I love structure and hierarchy, and will actively use whatever power or knowledge I have to maintain it. At best, I am lawful and insightful; at worst, I am bureaucratic and tyrannical.

Yeah. Pretty much. Sort of. Then again the options for 70% of the questions almost didn't apply to me at all and in their case I made my selection on an this-is-as-little-unlike-me-as-possible basis. But the colouring is nice, I guess~

Just watched Ten Inch Hero - I've the biggest smile in the world right now!

It was surprisingly awesome.

Jensen was awesome (and adorable and funny and awesome and great). Everyone was great. Loved all the characters. I'm a big ball of mush. 

I loved all the movie's subtleties (did I imagine them or were they actually there?) and I loved the sledge-hammer-like messages too. 

I was surprised by the topics it brought up - at least half of them were damn refreshing (or at the very least I don't normally see them referred to in movies)

It was 1.5 hours of enjoyment and fun. And then at the end I squeed. I'm not kidding, there was flailing and squeeing and giddy clutching at my blanket. 

Also, my headcanon has Priestly take the t-shirts et al back up in the foreseeable future; *shrug* life's just more fun like that.

Aaaah, so much joy  :)

So. I'm reading an article titled Positioning and self-presentation of innovative organizational forms on the European healthcare market.

The author's name is Mario Alexander Pfannstiel.

Yep.

In other news, this is what the university back-alley I'm biking along every day looks like, when the sun deigns to shine:


 
~Castiel: Don't go into the light! (5x16)

:)

Sign #2 that there's no hope for me left (as if I needed more proof, but whatever):

So I'm reading this article, right? And at one point something doesn't make sense, or, you know, a particular sentence passes through my head like it would Swiss cheese. And I catch myself doing that particular head-tilt + narrowing-of-eyes that Sam/Jared does when something intriguing (mostly in a shit-has-hit-the-fan or Moosing-out: I'm-gonna-punch-you-senseless-in-3...2...1... kind of way) happens on the show. You know the move, right? The one that's almost a bitch-face?

Yeah. Did it again while trying to pick the user-pic for this entry, because 11:37 is still apparently early in the morning for me (I refuse to drink coffee, damn it! ...capuccinos are my only compromise) and the picking of a user-pic did not compute for a moment.

Yep. Hopelessly gone.

So I'm learning Dutch, right? And I have this book. And I turned the page really fast to see the title of the next lesson, 'cause I'm curious like that; the title was "Pedalling  faster and faster" but I read it as Padaleki-ing smth smth, promptly did a double-take, then decided that no, there's no hope for me, none at all.

:-|

Oh man. I've almost finished furnishing my new place (did I mention that I was moving to a new room? Did I even mention that for the past four to five months I've been living (illegally, I might add) in Cata's room, Cata who is a saint and a life-saviour and forever on my mom's light-a-candle-for-this-person list?). Gloriously, the new place has its own bathroom and kitchen, and the one room is about 20 m2, so it's more than enough. The rent is higher than I'd expected, and if I'm unlucky the utilities will also be more than I'd expected, but my income should be enough to cover everything, even though my dreams of no more financial worries whatsoever after my PhD starts have been dashed (in the sense that I still have to be somewhat careful with my money, possibly quite careful at least the first months until I repay the money Ioana (another saint and life-saviour) lent me to furnish the apartment. But everything is well, and I'll definitely be able to repay that loan I'd made back home, the bane of my existence - and also the source of money that allowed me to come to the Netherlands in the first place, so I can't really hate it, can I? 

Anyway. 

( More stuff here )

Of course. Of course I start watching it now, when I have to start reading articles for my PhD (henceforth dubbed behemoth 3), and all I want to do is sit back and enjoy because it's so awesome.

Anyway, the point of this post is that I like all the characters and Walter most of all. John Noble is amazing, and every time Walter realises that he's missing something or that he doesn't make sense to other people, or when Peter casually/unwittingly pushes him away or puts him down (as justified as he might be) and it strikes a chord, my heart gets ripped to shreds. 

*collapses*

It took me a while, and the HTML work was hell (but hey, at least I learned something), but it's done, and it's at least semi-coherent, and hey, maybe it might prove useful (wow; my love for lists, cross-referencing, and hindsight might end up being useful), and shdfsahdg I'm posting it here too like a proud mother, if only to have Cas's adorable "accoplished" face/drawing-out-of-Ruby's-knife-like-a-boss moment as my moodtheme pic :)

SPN S6 timeline - or how I made the latest season make (more) sense... to myself

And again, thanks janice_lester , you're awesome!  ♥♥♥

My supervisor confirmed that, yes, I am supposed to start the PhD on the 1st of July. Now if only the HR guys would get off their lazy bums and do something about that, push papers, yadda yadda, I might even start on time

First draft of the timeline + notes for S6 is done. 27 pages in total *twitch* Must cut it down. Also, I had to get to 6x19 to realize what the point of it all was, the argument, if there was any; but it's there. I just have to figure out how to put it across via bullet-points. Mmmm-hmmmm.

I have so many little things I should do right now, since it's technically the last completely free month for a while, but I'm too bored to do them. What were all the things I kept putting off to when I had the time/a job and didn't t have to worry about it anymore? Really can't remember *sadface* Should throw away the remaining few papers that I have and don't need. Should start reading Gaiman again. And then get through my list of authors. Should start reading that book Mr. Boyfriend gave me. Should start watching those shows that had been on my list for three months or more. Why am I so bored/lazy right now? *shrug*

My initial estimations were wrong - the S6 timeline will most likely be ready at the end of the week; it's probably not helping that the footnotes (which will be collected in a separate post) are three times longer than the episode-notes that are part of the timeline itself and still in need of structuring.

I now crave a fic in which God!Cas is dropping souls left and right (possibly unintentionally or unknowingly), and they're either good or bad, and the boys keep running into them; said souls are taking over unsuspecting people as part of their getaway and the boys a) have to take them down if evil; b) are contacted by said souls if they're some of the good guys, since they're trying to help by offering information of some sort. Could Jimmy-in-another-body be one of them? If he's still in there? Or is he bound to the body since said body was originally his? Could one of them be Cas/part of Cas's consciousness, if you go with the idea that Cas/part of Cas is suppressed in one way or another by the millions upon millions of souls now inhabiting him? Enter Cas-in-another-vessel trope, only with frazzled memories, possibly little/no powers, and having to gain the boys' trust before he's able to offer any information.

I also just realised that, technically, Lenore's supposed to be up there in Godstiel's head too. What other good monsters have died along the line?

And what about Eve? I mean, is the Mother of all monsters technically a monster? And did she just go back to Purgatory when she died? So is she in Cas as well right now?

Have gathered my courage and rewatched 6x20-6x22. As a result, have started working again on that S6 timeline I wanted to put together. Thanks to janice_lester's useful remarks about the jumble of ideas and thinking-out-loud that was the first part of the first draft, it's now shaping up to be a much more organised and easy to follow... thing. Should be done with it by the middle of next week at the latest.

Have started learning Dutch again. I am very rusty indeed. I find it silly that what's helping my motivation the most is the fact that a friend of mine who's been taking lessons for a couple of months is now able to speak in a few complete-though-simple sentences (what can I do, I love challenges). I also find it funny that I've finally discovered the key to pronouncing most sounds the Dutch way - speaking with marbles in my mouth. As such, I feel a bit like an idiot, but it's a work in progress.

Will get my head scanned by an MRI machine again on Monday XD No worries, though, it's for a project. A friend of Cata's is doing her thesis in neuro-cognition, and she needs someone to beta-test the set-up of her experiment. Apparently, my extreme nit-picking is a special skill, or at least Cata approved of my input when I helped with her set-up, so my services are being pimped. 

 Watching this vid on reapeat and having my heart broken. Oh my Cas, how long you've travelled, and how much farther you've gone from this moment on. And I can't believe how incredibly appropriate this vid is right now, every bit of it, but especially from 2:20 on; hell, 2:30-2:54 can be interpreted differently through the lens of the newest developments on the show, and oh god, my heart ;__;
( Lola's "Nowhere to Stop" + other tiny thoughts )

Oh my god, the casting spoilers for S7, oh my god, oh lord, oh my, what does this mean for S7, what? what? what? Especially considering Sera's small comments about S7, and the slight comments about it all in the S7 description, vague as it was.

Are my worst fears coming true? What's going to happennnnnnnnnnnnn?

There's three months to wait, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

...yeah, see, this is the first SPN finale I've ever experienced, What with watching S1-S5 in one go last August, and the S5 finale being a bit more final and less cliff-hangery than this one. At least from my perspective.

*wibble*

Well, thank god for that PhD position, otherwise I'd have had even more reasons to be painfully worried right now... I might even have to think of worrying about SPN as a privilege... Mmmm-hmmmmmm...

Well, on the one-hour ride to and from that amusement park (which was awesome, wow) I had some more thoughts on the finale and the possibilities for S7.

It basically took me around half an hour to calm down from the utter shock of Cas "going evil", which I'd kept telling myself wouldn't happen, but once that happened and once I really wrapped my head around the implications of it all, there's a whole lot more stuff to say that Damn You, Erick Kripke, which I actually shouted at the top of my lungs (you know, for kicks*wibbles*) along with other screams while riding a roller-coaster. For the first time in my life. Yeah.

There shall be bullet points, because there is too much:
( Read more... )

 I have just one thing to say:

( Read more... )

In a nutshell, 

Fancy running into you here, clearly we're only running into each other about once or twice a month now, but since i'd rather keep it on a lighter note, posts will probably be this sparse until my financial situation gets settled one way or another.

But in the meantime - meme! Tagged by janice_lester, the darling. 

THE RULES:
1. People who have been tagged must write the answers on their blog and replace any question they dislike with a new, original question.
2. Tag five people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.
( Under here )

In short, still without a job. Have gone through horrible, painful emotional crash last Thursday when I found out that I didn't get a PhD position in Wageningen that I'd had all my hopes set on. Have realised that will have to go back home at the end of March. Have come to terms with the possibility, while still looking for a job. Have realised that I can still stay on for at least one more month, since Cata's having me stay at her place, bless her soul - though oh, do I hope I could find something by then.

Emotional status - almost shot to hell; I'm kind of keeping it in hand though.

In other news, have started watching mainlining Doctor Who, since I'd been curious for quite a while, and I'd run out of shows to watch in the background for my job searches. I present to you copy-pastings of a few of my reactions to this marvellous, glorious, painful, amazing, torturing, criminal, fantastic show:

( Under here; read it and weep. No really. )

I'm so glad I'm watching it   ;______________;

( Spoilers )

In other, more serious news, I didn't get the job - am rather relived about it, to tell the truth. Am currently applying for several PhD positions in Germany. We'll see what happens.

Now back to the crazy that is SPN 6x10

== ETA ==

This episode has everything, everything we could ever have wanted! Holy. Crap. It's really been a while since I've seen an episode that dealt with so. many. issues that fans had been bothered by/wondering about, if I've even seen one that did it quite this much. Whoa. Also? My god, can Misha Collins (and, by extension, Cas) kiss; wow; just... wow...

Have just had my first phone interview for what is basically a tele-sales job in Amsterdam. 40 minutes of answering never-before heard questions (e.g. How would you introduce yourself to your team? (ack! that's always difficult!) What would make you really really angry? How would you solve a situation in which a team-mate slacks off on the job? If the manager weren't convinced and wanted to talk to you, and there was one thing you could say to him/her that wasn't in your CV that could change his/her mind, what would it be?) and trying to sound confident while knowing that I've never sold anything in my life - not actively; I've had two call-center jobs, and in one of them I kinda-sorta sold loans, but actually didn't, because the customer was supposed to go to the branch later on and talk to another person to actually get the loan. Um, yeah.

Also, the dreaded "why do you want this job" question, and trying to sound awesomely excited about sales, when in fact I'm not, not at all...

They're supposed to call me back in 10 min, if the manager's there to be consulted, if not I'll probably find out on Monday.

The person I had the interview with said I did well, and I had her laughing several times. Meh, we'll see. The fact that I'm not crazy about this particular job would help me swallow disappointment if I don't get it. The fact that it's the only interview I've been scheduled for after three weeks of looking will certainly not help. 

...there's a researcher's assistant job in Germany for a particular university I could apply for... do I want to move to Germany?

...what am I doing with my life?...

Oh well. Nil desperandum. Things'll work out some way or another. I hope. *crosses fingers*

 Took the colour test, and apparently my perception of colour is better than I would have thought. Excellent!

Your score: 4
Gender: Female
Age range: 20-29
Best score for your gender and age range (also, best possible score): 0
Highest score for your gender and age range: 43668

Oh yeah. Seeing colours like a boss!

In other news, I've started getting the half-expected polite refusals for all the jobs I applied for last week. The company that said would give me a call sometime this week hasn't called yet. The Phd I was waiting around for at my Uni has most likely been scrapped - I've been informed about a grant programme for Phd proposals that would be in force in the summer of next year, though, so at least there's that. I still have to find a job in the meantime.

Still, as the saying goes, "Neither rain nor snow nor glo m of ni  t can stay these messengers abo t thier duty stop me from applying left and right like crazy."